Hi Jane I just joined and I know exactly how you feel. I have been overweight for most of my life. Recently found out I am now diabetic. I joined a gym, bought a bike this summer and shut my tv off. I have lost 20 pounds and struggle every day to make sure I am active. I feel really good and this guy called me a MILF if you can believe it. I didn't hear it but my daughter told me that. Things like that inspire me but it isn't easy and I don't think it ever will be. It really is one day at a time. I have hit a plateau and it is hard for me to push through it. I wish you lived closer so we could go thru it together. Maybe a program like Curves could help. It may be spendy (IDK) but worth it in the long run. Good luck to you!