Hi I read your story and understand. I was married for seventeen years my exhusband and I called it quits. I'm on my own with five children. When I realized it was over the last six years of my marriage I educated myself, went back to school. Yet the field didn't pay what I needed for five children. I went back to school,I'm going for the RN program. It was a struggle because I walked away with alimony and childsupport and rebuilding my life. My children are doing great, the saw my husband and I physically hurt one another and verbally. Believe or not they hurt more than we do. I was afraid to leave because of finances oh believe me I know the turmoil of your decision. What you do is think of your kids,support yourself with good friends be honest with your children they can really help. My children really helped me during my divorce. They all live at home, my oldest is nineteen and the youngest nine. I do understand. Whatever your decision is think about yourself what is best for you, and your children. Finances you will be taken care of the courts will make sure of it. You just try to be strong, your not alone there are millions of women like us. You are smart enough to make a good decision, look around you are raising your beautiful children. Good luck may peace and blessing follow you all of your days. Sincerly someone who has been in yours shose that is still in it. Dont feel bad it will get better I promise