You may think by the Subject Line that I would know that answer. Well the truth of the matter is that...I just don't. I have had nothing but trouble and broken hearts from my past relatonships. I thought, of course, that was because of my lack of faith when I was younger. My dad forbid the love of my life to persue our relationship, thus leaving me in a state of shock and confusion. Not knowing why he left me out in the cold, I assumed it was because I finally gave in to my youthful desires and hopeful commitment to this guy. You see, unlike today, back in 1973 it wasn't popular that you slept with guys. At that time I gave my heart and soul to this young man. He was the love of my life and thesame yound man who took my virginity. Therefore, due to mymoral outlook at the time and my upbringing, he was the one I was suppose to spend the rest of my life with. Well, because of my dad's threats, I moved on in life from one failed realtionship to another. Than one day over 30 years later, out of nowhere, I received a note from mylost love through Classmates.com, stating that hehad thought about me through out the years and wanted to know how my life turned out. Well, I divorced theman I wasmarried to for 15 years (and a marriage that was just waiting for an excuse) and reunited with him within a short amount of time.My dreams were answered when he proposed tome after just six monthsinto our relationship, ofcourse I said yes. I'm getting ahead of myself. Let me go back. WhenI leftmy husband who was secretive and deceptive,my family (children and dad(of course)) pretty much disowned me. None-the-less, he was the man of my dreams (remember.) I just knew it was allin the plans of the "big picture." Well, he askedme to marry him,and since than he has pretty much recanted that proposal. Every time wedisagree he counts it as a huge fight and that we couldn't possibly looking atmarriagenow. What do I do, am I looking at a dead end or is he just scared because of his divorce gone bad thing? If so, doesn't he know that I love him more than anything and that I would never do what she did justto hurt him? Please help,I feellike I'm working too hard for this love, and that he just doesn't feel the way I do. HELP!!!

We are not him and we are not mindreaders here, so we cannot answer some of your questions.

Speak to a marriage counselor or to your pastor. It's much better than asking for anonymous advice on the Internet.