Frustrated To Say The Least

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Suddenly, for no apparent (to me, anyway) reason, he begins not calling me, and coming up with very lame excuses for why we can't see each other. At first I believed him as I was gullible -- I trusted him a lot.

Over the course of about four months, the contact dwindled (ie, he failed to return calls/messenger msgs/texts), and the plans we would make would continue to be spoiled by some extraordinary circumstance. At the last minute something would always come up. It got to the point where we would have no contact for weeks at a time, and when we would talk, he would complain that I was unhappy.

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The second-to-last straw that broke the camel's back was when I spent two hours waiting in line at the ONLY gas station that still had gas at the time (this was during the gas shortage), and spent over a hundred dollars on gasoline, to facilitate a trip we had planned for over a month. As per usual, at the very last minute something came up and he failed to deliver. Again, keeping my cool to the best of my ability, and being blatant but not MEAN, I told him about the rigmarole I went through to get the gas. Again, he did not seem to care.

Several weeks later he broke plans to spend time together on his birthday, and at that point, I broke up with him.

I hope I wasn't being selfish by breaking up with him on his birthday but, I just...all of the anger and hurt that had been building up by the continuous neglect, and lack of caring, just kind of all came out at once. If I hadn't been so hurt by his actions I never would have broken up with him on his birthday.

Now, let's fast forward another six months. I haven't spoken to him at all since the b-day break up. He starts coming around again on messenger, trying to get me to talk to him. Feeling guilty and feeling like I was denying him something, I conceited and started talking to him again.

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My 'fried' emotional state lead me to make poor decisions and bad judgment calls which ultimately resulted in me sleeping with someone for whom I had no feelings..

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That was until two months ago, in January, right after my birthday, he STARTED DOING THE SAME THING TO ME AGAIN! It was the first time around ALL. OVER. AGAIN., with virtually no difference. Weeks without contact, never initiating anything, and always coming up with excuses for not hanging out.

So, it's present day. I'm currently awaiting a call from him. Apparently he feels I shouldn't expect him to talk to me, and I should be happy with whatever time he gives me. He also expects me to believe his effing lies again. Honestly, who is SO busy that they can't make a five minute phone call at SOME point in the day? He works in retail. He could call me on break, call me on the bus home, call me before he went to bed, etc..

What's so confusing is every time we're together (in person) everything is fantastic. We're like two peas in a pod and lovey-dovey.

So my question is simple: what's my course of action? Should I give him ANOTHER chance? I cannot deny that my feelings for him are strong, and that most of my daily thoughts are occupied by him. I love him, truly. I love him to death. I'd marry him if it wasn't for this garbage he's doing to me.

What's worse is apparently as soon as I get fed a bit of niceties, I forget all about what he's done to me in the past, and forgive him completely. I don't know how much more unconditional my love can get.

Please offer me some advice guys. I'm worn down at this point. My heart can't take any more of this.

Thanks in advance, and thanks if you made it this far in reading.

Sincerely,
Jen Powers

.This friend of his was very...how to put it..."ill mannered" and "dangerous", meaning he was known to be a drug user, somewhat of a minor criminal, etc.. Now, it's absolutely none of my business who he hangs out with.