He left, I'm confused, just need some people to tell me it's ok.

One night we were out with a dramaqueen friend of mine. They got in a stupid fight mostly because they disagreed about things and she can not "lose" or be disagreed with. She started all kinds of crap, and he flung it back at her. I finally got them to stop. Later that night, he told me he thinks he should break up with me to protect my friendship with her. Later that night, he told me he thinks he should break up with me to protect my friendship with her. I explained that their fight had nothing to do with my emotions for him and it could all be handled like adults. But he left!

I dated a guy for 3 months, very regularly. We both wanted to go slow and get to know each other because we are both at a point in our lives where we want something serious. This was all discussed. He told me he wanted relationship and was courting me and was a complete gentleman. We had a great time together. We hadn't slept together yet, but the flirting was escalating, and it seemed like we were heading in that direction very soon. My feelings were growing for him. One night we were out with a dramaqueen friend of mine. They got in a stupid fight mostly because they disagreed about things and she can not "lose" or be disagreed with. She started all kinds of crap, and he flung it back at her. I finally got them to stop. Later that night, he told me he thinks he should break up with me to protect my friendship with her. I explained that their fight had nothing to do with my emotions for him and it could all be handled like adults. But he left! He then proceeded to email, and his explanations as to why he left were in poems or were full of contradicting statements. I could not get him on the phone. I tried to tell him I did not understand and did not want him to leave over a fight with her. He then started to say (in emails/poems) that he was protecting me and doing the honorable thing. I was stupid to write back trying to figure it all out because it only led to 3 weeks of emailing and hearing the same thing that he adored me so much but would rather protect my smile, etc. But he never clearly told me why he left if he cared for me and what exactly he is protecting me from. He says he has his reasons, but that i was the best thing to happen to him in a long time. I asked if he was scared off by falling for me, and he says that i can have my opinion of him, but he has his reasons and what don't i understand about him protecting me? He told me he hasn't even told his friends that he left me, and he has barely even told himself. This last email I got tonight was him saying he has one thing to be thankful for this Thanksgiving-- that is that he got to know me and all these wonderful things about me, and he was about to fall in love and all his family and friends knew it. SO i feel completely mind-F@#ked. If he had to protect me from him by leaving, why did he wait until now? Why string me along for 3 months? If he was falling in love, why leave? Here I was going slow, trying to be with someone who wants to be serious, and he bailed out when it started to become that way. So i am still confused and hurt over it. I feel led on. When I try to accept that it just couldn't be ad I am lucky to know now, I get some email just reminding me of his contradiction and confusion. I don't know why people date when they then say they must leave because there are things to protect someone special from, yet say they were falling in love.... Should I block his email address? He keeps sending stupid stuff like youtube videos and jokes. It's like he can't commit to being with me, but he can't commit to leaving me. I think I just need some confirmation that I am not crazy. He has confused me so much and makes me feel like I have lost my mind. I will never get to know why. Now I am trying to figure out how to move on.