I've been with the same guy for almost 2 years now.
About half of the relationship was spent long distance, about a 2-3 hour commute. Sometimess we'd only see eachother everyother weekend to a month.

Talking on the phone was the only real connection I had to him sometimes, and over time he started to hate talking on the phone.

He even voiced he was tired of commuting.

At the time, I hadn't had a job and was still going to school. It was rare for me to come into any kind of money but I still managed to save up a bit and use it towards taking a ferry and a bus just to go see him. I feel naive now, cause I had made him my life.

Over the span of the relationship, there was a single girl I had grown uncomfortable about. Simply put; he used to have feelings for her and tried very hard to see her. I recently found out that he had gone behind my back a few times just to "hang out."

Now, he's a hardcore gamer and I too played some games. But sometimes I wanted some time to hang out with him, without them. It was difficult to have him find that time for me, but he had stopped for her.


Twice in the relationship he decided he didn't know if he actually loved me, and decided to stop saying it.

And a third time, when I was sick and worried over my dad being in the hospital....we got into an argument because I needed to talk to him for support. He decided the argument was too much for him, and a year into the relationship, ended it.

A month later he came to me saying he was willing to try it again, and I accepted.

But I had grown bitter and distant because of the strain and emotional damage the relationship had done to me.

I still tried to be all there though, even considering.

At a point, it felt as if he decided to say "I love you." again, just to keep me around.

And later, I had found disscussions and hearsay from friends that he was only in the relationship cause he was afraid he wouldn't find someone else anytime soon, and he enjoys sex so much.


I had decided we go on a break recently to figure things out.
I just don't know if its worth it anymore.


Even my dad has said how he hates the way he treats me infront of him....and how my friends treat me better.

And its true, soemtimes I'm happier with my friends. But it can be hard.