Nerdy...I said dreams...not fantasies

1) My professional dream is what it has always been: To be an outstanding fine artist,create beautiful work and to make a good living from it. This is what Igive thanksfor in my prayers everyday.** This is what I have worked on for the past twenty years. My second dream is to have the financial stability to achieve the first dream. I would like to no longer have to work a second job to achieveit. Also, I would like to have more time to focus on just that, because I am beginning to grow tired of being stretched so thinly in mydaily life.


2) My dream relationshipwould be with a man who accepts me for myself, as I would accept him. He would be a man of high character and intelligence, as well as being someone who is both spiritually and self-aware, having a sense of social consciousness about the world around him. I am involved in global poverty issues on a volunteer level. I am also concerned about the great number of missing children in thiscountry,children who are abused and children who are victimsof pedophiles.Therefore, I would do best with someone who is somewhatlike-mindedinsimilar areas, if only on a caring level. Last, but not least, he would be a man with a great sense of humor to provide a buffer for all these serious issues.


3) Not only do I remember my dreams, which are frequent and colorful, Iuse themas subject matter for both my art andpoetry. Sometimes, completed paintings have come to me clinging to the edge of a just-before-waking dream. Or whole lines of poetry have insinuated themselves at the sleep-wakeborder. that stage where you are conscious of dreaming, while the body fightsfor alertness. This onceoccurred more frequently than now, and I would keep a small notebook at my bedside to capture these gems before they poofed forever.


Most of my dreams deal with houses and geographical locations, all of which I remember to this day, but none of which I am familiar with in a waking state. However, in the dream, I traverse these places with knowledge that they mean something to me. There are at least three different streets I often walk down in my dreams, always stopping to gaze at a particular house on that street. As I enter, I am aware that this is my house, usually newly purchased, and always as I walk through, having more rooms than I wasinitially shown. Something about this dream is so pleasing that I feel very satisfied while having it, and don't want to wake up. Discovering those unknown rooms is wonderful.


I often fly in my dreams, but with moving legs, rather than wings. The one dream I'll never forget was one where I was driving a car out of town. As I approached the outskirts, there were fewer people and finally none. I felt a sense of forboding as the sky turned brown, and then the houses and landscape. Each and everything in that dream was dark brownas I continued to drive along. It was a nightmare where I felt like the last person on earth. Hope I never have thatone again.


**My prayers are said first thing is the morning for things to come,and always from a position of thankfulness.