To stay or not to stay??

I started dating my current boyfriend about 3 years ago. When i met him he informed me that he was going on a 4 month vacation with his friend to Australia/New Zealand/Thailand. I told him maybe we should wait until he comes back to get serious but he insisted on dating me because of all these feelings he had for me, he didn't want to let a great thing pass him by. So i agreed. We were together for about 4 months before he left on his trip. I already had pretty strong feelings for him and him for me so i was sad to see him go.


While he was away he emailed me and called me on occassion but he was on a budget so i didn't expect too many calls or even emails for that matter. He continually expressed his longing for me and how excited he was to come back and be with me. I waited patiently for his return.


Several days before the date he told me he was flying in i found out from a mutual friend he was already home. He never called me or anything. I was upset but tried not to over-react. I found out later he was planning to surprise me...i never really belived that but regardless he found out i knew and the "surprise" was ruined.


We saw eachother a few days after he got back and he was acting odd, i accounted it to jetlag or just getting used to being back again. He later informed me in the brink of tears that he contracted an HPV on his trip, but insisted he never had sex,and accounted it to beingdrugged one night and awaking with his pants and underwear off. He says thats the only thing he could think of. i eventually belived him because he was so insistent and i belived he was a good person that wouldn't lie.


our relationship continued with very few incidents for the next few years, until recently i discovered a journal he wrote in throughout his trip detailing some odd icidents occuring between him and other females...no sex, just kissing and then the chapter would end, but i had a feeling he just wasn't writing everything. I got a sudden overwhelming realization at that point that he had lied to me in some way or another. He had told me a bit about kissing a girl on his trip before, but not in this detail, and not with more than one, as the journal had shown me. So i confronted him, saying i knew he cheated, but didn't tell him how i knew, to see how much i could get out of him. With much prodding he eventually confesed to several incidences where he was seduced into naked/nearly naked excapades with several girls...but again never sleeping with them...pretty much everything BUT that.


So ok, what now?? That was years ago and our relationship had been going on only as long as he was away, so what should i expect, he's only human right. That and the last few years have been great, so should i end our whole relationship based on something that happened in the very beggining? But, he also has been lying to me/keeping this a secret for so long,and is what he told me now even the truth? I thought i could read him pretty well but obviously i can't. Deep down i don't feel as though he would cheat on me now. I wouldn't put the whole cheating thing passed him a few years ago, but he's a changed person since his trip, his bad decisions hit him hard and he's like a new man in alot of ways, plus our feelings are alot stronger now.


Please help me out. I feel torn in so many directions and im looking for any advice i can get!


Thank you.