See now, I asked you not to reopen the "Other" discussion. I even said "please please please". And yes, I said "devastated" when that wasn't the exact word you used... even if it was clearly what you meant. Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?

And I'm sincere when I say IMO, that your emotional anxiety is showing quite badly. I don't care what you think about what I think. If you don't want all points of view, then don't post the question. Or request only answers that agree with you. That'll help.

No, I've never hugged a pillow. Because that's not what they're for.

Good luck to you.