Seeing this great guy for two months. But I am trying to work on certain things:

1. I never call him or text him. He is always the one initiating contact.
2. I have a habit of not talking to him if something is wrong. but only because i do not want to bother him with trivialities.
3. We both work a lot. i turn off my cellphone a lot to focus on my work and he gets worried about that.
4. I have certain plans that require me to go abroad and every time i bring it up, he gets very upset and tells me it depressed him. So does that mean i have to put my life on hold?
5. I sometimes have a very pessimistic outlook and think that he will leave me suddenly because i am just one of those women.

I want our relationship to continue and grow and see where we end up. I do not care where i go or if i don't go to work abroad, but i just want that option to be open. As for lack of phone calls it is simply because i do not want to bother him. I called him last night and he was very tired and I felt guilty as it is for bothering him. In terms of being a little distant there have been problems in my family and I know he gets hurt if I am hurt so I just don't say anything to he doesn't spend the day worrying about me. As for the pessimistic out look.... The last couple of days I feel as though we have gotten distant. We fought all day on saturday because as I said there are things between my father and I that are going on and I have been very snappy. Sometimes i just feel like i am banging against the wall here... it gets very exhausting. He is the person I love very much and I do not want to hurt him in anyway.
Maybe i should take some time away from him?
How can i really improve on my negatives in order to make both of us happy?