i had been dating this guy.. within a month i realised that i dint want to b wid this guy.. i used to tell him very often about it. he patiently used to listen to my reasons n problems n at times used to say ok if i dont wanna have it. but since we like being together, despite having jerky fights over the same matter.. we some how stretched our not so r'ship like r'ship upto 3 months.despite evry negative answer n non cooperation frm my side.. he kept on inclining towards a commitment. i somehow didnt agree to him... n remained stubborn on my point... but once he simply vanished n dint turn up for several days (probably feeling very hurt).. n i got worked up n tried to reach him back .. n i did but he took d promise frm me that i will stay wid him always.. i agreed but may b just out of restlessness to set the things right n bring him back .but again i undid my words n just to get out of the thing ... i told him dat my parents have problems for me keeping him as my guy so therefore i cant date him... n neither do i love him. he again says ok but still d same... n once i blasted at him as i wanted to study... n it was eating up my time.. i dint want to spend much time wid him.... n he wasnt letting me have my space... so wen i blasted at him n said that i hate him for doing all this. i was in a faul mood for my time getting wastd. but nxt day i went upto him to apologise ... that was a polite word we xchanged wid each other... i was still uncomfortable.. so i again went up to him n apologised n he said he hates me n i dont exist for him anymore. since then, i havnt turnd upto him... recently he sends me a msg. that he hates me n he thanks me for making him realise dat love is sacred thing which is not meant for selfish people like me...
i sometimes feel that i have done something really wrong to him. i begin to question my conscience... m i really dat bad n mean to have thought for myself?wat shud i do?