Sounds to me like she wants you for her next "sweetie" she can "miss" and "hug".

Unlike Moon, I don't see much hope. Not when you're so unforgivable to her she wants to throw up!

Some people want to be the one to end the relationship. They can't stand having somebody turn their back & walk away. I'm getting that impression of her. I think that's why she wants to see you this summer.

The thing that bothers me here is that you felt compelled to snoop on her, while believing it to be wrong. If we're really good for each other we bring out the best in each other. That certainly wasn't your best!

Do you want to see her again to "remove the rest of her hurt"? What about your hurt? Are you going to feel better if you see her? You should do what feels right to you.