Oh Simpleton - your post made me sad. Sometimes, people need to remember that they choose to be the person they are - not their past or their upbringing. Be a real man and stop blaming everything and everyone else for your situation. Trust me, it will be a great improvement on your entire life.

(And I know there is a real man in you - you just have not found him yet.)

PS: Real men do cry and hurt and they don't need any excuse for it. That is a real man - a man that knows his worth and does not need to prove it to anyone. Think Popeye - I am what I am.