So I met someone that I thought had "potential" last weekend for a date from E-Harmony. Spent almost 3 weeks of exchanging e-mails before we met. She wanted to take it slow and cautious. She requested the initial communication and for the next few weeks, we exchanged short/brief e-mails 1-2X a day.

So the date went very well. Almost 4 hours. Attractive, nice and it seemed like we had a great time. A lot of laughs and a lot of energy. Said goodbye and thanks with a nice kiss.

I liked her!

For the next 3 days afterwords, we exchanged more e-mails. Set a date to get together again. Good pace. Not over wellming as I have a lot going on at work.

And then......"poof". She disappeared. Vanished. No "Dear John", no "I am sorry", no "nothing".

Until it happens to you with someone you like or you think might have potential, you don't know the feelings of hurt and disappointment. And while I know this is part of the on line dating game, it does not take away the feelings of emptyness and the fear of having to do the entire process again with someone new.

I myself am guilty of the same thing only a few weeks ago. With someone that liked me but I felt no chemistry after the first date. Rather than tell her so, I simply vanished.

Maybe life does go in circles. Maybe what you do to others yesterday will come back tomorrow. But until it happens to you, you just don't know the power of rejection and hurt.

I will be "ok". Have no choice. Have two wonderful boys that I love and a great career. Also remain involved in competitive cycling, which is a healthy outlet. I am just missing the joy of having someone with me doing fun things together as a couple.

Just seems like it's taking a lot longer than it should and I am meeting a lot of women that seem to be confused with what they really want.