I have a son who got sick at the age of 3 with a condition called Rasmussen syndrome he was my first born being a young mother i think it made it harder because I believed everything the doctors said but as we all must know by know that's not always true anyways my husband used to say we should put him in a home we had just started are first business and bout our second home so we where not ready for the financial cost of course I did not but it did create a bridge between me and my husband he would complain about everything. all the time I spend in the hospital. all the times I left our bed to care for my son. even when I had my mother son I left the hospital to drop off my new born off so I could go with my older son to UCLA ICU my husband was jealous of him well my god had other plans the doctors said my son would only live three years that was 25 years ago and as for my husband he died November 16 1996 about dating I am just going to start after almost 12 years of being alone but my thought is my son comes first and if any one comes in my life and share my blessing then they could just hid the road