On christmas day I kicked my husband of 20 years out. I found out on christmas eve he had been cheating on me. Not in a million years did I think this man would do something that would bring me down so far, i cant breath, Im walking around in a fog, wondering if life will be the same. I was 16 and he 15 when we first started dating it was always an on and off thing, I got preg and after our boy turned a year we were married at 19 and 20. I wanted the fairy tail the 50 year marrige, little white house picket fence. What do I do next and How How do I start to even trust this man again, I cant turn my love for this man off. Someone please help my heart to heal.